*insert Super Mario 1-up tune*

[tigeronstarfire]

There's something on my mind at the moment...and it's bothering me. I don't know if it's reasonable to think so, or if this is even a problem anyone has had before, or if I'm just having a subconcious pride kick that really shouldn't be there. And I know my art isn't all that special. Given. But...I don't know if it's what I percieve as my level of maturity, or even my own personality nuances..but...and Zei has given me blatant heat about this at times, and perhaps I can feel it coming off of others, but...

I worry I'm too good for my own good. Funny, eh?

I worry I make people jealous. I worry I outshine others...even if I do it unintentionally. I worry that there are times that, say, if I were to do something, that I would totally make others feel left out in the dust, guilty over themselves, or to the point of total depression. And that worries me.

So I have certain talents, certain abilities I've grown over the years...over trying to make myself a better person. In terms of my personality kinks, my maturity factor, my sexual ethic, perhaps my wisdom, or my intuitivity...and it's made me wonder that if I do just a few more things... No...I can't say that. There are still many more things I have yet to accomplish. I know that for a fact. I just...worry that I make people jealous for who I am. Now...I may just be percieving things wrong, but it's a thought that's bothering me in the back of my mind, and I am a little curious if others can help me shed some light on this.

And please, don't get me wrong. I'm not trying to say I'm better than anyone here. I just worry with how far others may percieve me of having come, that they become jealous of me. Am I wrong for thinking so?

*sighs* It's a strange feeling...one I'm not altogether very fond of, and I'm not quite sure how to deal with it.

Any help, guys?

Comments

[banalheart.livejournal.com]

I'm not jelious of anything, personaly.
you DO on occasion irk me with your veiws of sexuality and your belief that the rest of us should be like yas, but that's you, a part of you, and I have no right to get miffed by that.
I suppose I greatly value other folks veiws and beliefs of things, be it sexuality or religion. why do you think i give zei dirty looks when he says god damn or smack isfa when he says "fuck you god!"?

things like that irk me... greatly.
so to answer your question, are you too good for your own good.
yeah.
I recomend you get a little dirty on occasion.

Well...

[tigeronstarfire.livejournal.com]

Well, in terms of sexuality, I'm just a bit unsettled by some things, and just because it's a variance doesn't necessarily mean I'm open to it. Does this mean I'll say that someone is wrong? Eh...I won't necessarily support it, but that's also your choice. And I don't think everyone should be like me...I've kinda gotten over that ideal I mentioned last post. I mean, as I said following it, I didn't think that it was right of me to create some ideal for furs to follow because of how different we all are. Variety IS the spice of life, ne? =3

*but still chuckles a bit* But I'll keep the getting dirty thought in mind. ; )

Re: Well...

[banalheart.livejournal.com]

**shrugs**

The Spice must flow...