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Hey guys. Not quite sure where to start here since it's been a little while. But I figured I'd just go ahead and get with it, I guess. :3P
Part of me somehow hates to keep updating this journal with stuff that I collect and the like, which is most of what I'd probably write about anyway. But it's part of a deeper conflict I have with myself about flaunting or gloating the things I have, and somehow making someone else feel bad because of that. But then, maybe that's just me thinking to myself, being neurotic, when that doesn't really exist anyway. <= [ Not sure.
Anywho, I just wanted to first make a shout to a friend I made a few weekends ago at RCFM -![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
mikefox2d. He's a really awesome guy, and I'm so glad that I have him as a pal. :D That, and he's extremely cute to boot. XD And he has a very sweet and artistic wife. We spent several hours just talking about life, religion, furry, and the like at the con, and we just seemed to connect really well. Made me happy. :3 Hope it continues well into the future.
Regarding other things - played and beaten Final Fantasy XIII and No More Heroes II, working on Super Mario Galaxy 2 in my spare time (or whenever I get around to it). Regarding FFXIII, I liked the whole video game storybook aspect, but it did feel way too linear. I'm used to having freedom to open up and do things whenever I so choose, but the leveling on rails really disappointed me, but the story was really nice. And, much as other people may disagree, I think Hope had the most dynamic character development within the party, and I think I ended up connecting to him most. No More Heroes...I miss the epicness of the original, and it was over a lot quicker. But the music was really catchy and it was fun regardless. I even ended up smacking myself in the back of the head with my Nunchuk cord because I get too passionate into these things. XD SMG2...it's fun, but I have to play it in doses. Don't wanna spoil too much of a good thing too quickly, but I'm enjoying the level design thus far. I'm not a fan of the map system, though, and it reminds me too much of NSMB which I am not fond of anyway for making something 'new', but doesn't really feel too special.
Ran into a few epiphanies lately too. For one, I'm opting not to spend any time or energy on a relationship that doesn't return it. This goes more for love interests, as I know I'm pretty bad about talking to people since I'm so used to just doing my own thing. But there is something that feels genuinely nice about connecting with others, and I do want to foster the friendships I already have. Quality over quantity, I say. :) (That, and it keeps things simple for me, which I like). Another one, to make a segway, is also about simplifying my life and doing things that matter to me more, things that have more value to me. In addition, cutting out things that I don't enjoy or value as much so I can focus on the things that I really do. I mean, it sucks to let an interest go, but I really wanna put my all into it if I do something. It feels better too. XD Cutting out things makes time for the more valued stuff, and ends up making tiggy happier, so I think it's potentially win win. :) Something I wound back onto after years, I guess, was this site - Zenhabits. In particular, 20 Ways to Eliminate Stress From Your Life. Totally recommend a read if you're up for it. :)
Let's see... More progress is being made on my fursuit, and I now have about a footpaw and a half done, and the tail, head, and chest (besides the airbrushing for striping) will be what's left. Hopefully Silver and I'll work more on that this week, as I'd love to have it for AC. Fingers crossed, but hopefully it'll be done. Just sucks he's been busy, and I hate to make him change gears if he doesn't have a few hours to spend with me on it.
Another thing - I ended up getting a tablet PC. :) It's an old refurbished model, an HP Pavilion TX2517CL, which I got from CedarPC. With shipping, it initially set me back $340, and I just had to get a replacement keyboard and stylus to go with it for about $40 more. In addition, I ended up replacing the drive from a 250GB 5400rpm to a 320GB 7200rpm drive I had lying around, installed Windows 7. I also plan to use it for my drawing/coloring and travel PC, since it's a lot easier to tote than my 17" lappy. I'll have this with me when I go to AC in a few weeks. Thanks to the digitzer screen (that's 'Wacom penabled'), the brighter things do look grainy, and I have to be careful from going between a CCFL backlight to an LED one, since sometimes the colors I picked don't look correct on my LED screen.
Beyond that, I guess it's been somewhat life as normal. Got a new coonie plush for my huggy tiger to snuggle, got a stand for my tablet PC to work on it better, have some new luggage on the way that I'll be using when I go to AC... Oh! And I'm back on the 'experimental medication' that I was on several years ago that cleared me up so well! :D The medication is now called Stelara, and unfortunately, it is pretty expensive. o_O But I go for my next booster shot next month, and I'm progressively showing more and more improvement as the days go by. It's certainly not as 'fast' as I'd like, but it's encouraging to know that people are still seeing improvement as they continue the treatments.
This past weekend too, I went on an impromptu furmeet to the Aquarium of the Americas, met a few new people and hung out with some old friends for a few hours, and afterwards, saw Avenue Q. What bugged me is that I knew most of the play going into it due to the soundtrack, but it was nice to connect the songs with the dialogue in between. Just wish I had a few more people that went with me to enjoy it too. :( Afterwards, I saw Ross and Will again, hung out with them for a while, ended up getting and building the chair I REALLY wanted to get a few months ago, and had a pretty relaxing Sunday, all told.
Lastly, I'm looking forward to Nintendo's E3 conference later today. :) Probably gonna learn some fascinating stuff about the 3DS (since it may be more powerful than the Wii) and whatever else Nintendo throws at us. They still have my heart first when it comes to gaming, and I can't wait.
I think I've packed into this journal what I've held back on saying for a while - I'm just kinda surprised that it's so much. XD I guess I should write about it more. :3P Still though, I hope you guys are hanging in there and doing okay.
That, and I'll end my journal with a quote that has been somewhat inspirational to me (and to get me out of the funk I mentioned in the beginning)
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.' We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." (A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles", Harper Collins, 1992. From Chapter 7, Section 3])
My hope is that I try not to hide that 'light' that I have as much as I normally do. I don't want to make others jealous or feel bad - but deep down, I do want to share what makes me happy. And I'm gonna give myself permission to do so. X3
If you made it through that huge block of text, thanks for reading, guys. :3
Part of me somehow hates to keep updating this journal with stuff that I collect and the like, which is most of what I'd probably write about anyway. But it's part of a deeper conflict I have with myself about flaunting or gloating the things I have, and somehow making someone else feel bad because of that. But then, maybe that's just me thinking to myself, being neurotic, when that doesn't really exist anyway. <= [ Not sure.
Anywho, I just wanted to first make a shout to a friend I made a few weekends ago at RCFM -
mikefox2d. He's a really awesome guy, and I'm so glad that I have him as a pal. :D That, and he's extremely cute to boot. XD And he has a very sweet and artistic wife. We spent several hours just talking about life, religion, furry, and the like at the con, and we just seemed to connect really well. Made me happy. :3 Hope it continues well into the future.Regarding other things - played and beaten Final Fantasy XIII and No More Heroes II, working on Super Mario Galaxy 2 in my spare time (or whenever I get around to it). Regarding FFXIII, I liked the whole video game storybook aspect, but it did feel way too linear. I'm used to having freedom to open up and do things whenever I so choose, but the leveling on rails really disappointed me, but the story was really nice. And, much as other people may disagree, I think Hope had the most dynamic character development within the party, and I think I ended up connecting to him most. No More Heroes...I miss the epicness of the original, and it was over a lot quicker. But the music was really catchy and it was fun regardless. I even ended up smacking myself in the back of the head with my Nunchuk cord because I get too passionate into these things. XD SMG2...it's fun, but I have to play it in doses. Don't wanna spoil too much of a good thing too quickly, but I'm enjoying the level design thus far. I'm not a fan of the map system, though, and it reminds me too much of NSMB which I am not fond of anyway for making something 'new', but doesn't really feel too special.
Ran into a few epiphanies lately too. For one, I'm opting not to spend any time or energy on a relationship that doesn't return it. This goes more for love interests, as I know I'm pretty bad about talking to people since I'm so used to just doing my own thing. But there is something that feels genuinely nice about connecting with others, and I do want to foster the friendships I already have. Quality over quantity, I say. :) (That, and it keeps things simple for me, which I like). Another one, to make a segway, is also about simplifying my life and doing things that matter to me more, things that have more value to me. In addition, cutting out things that I don't enjoy or value as much so I can focus on the things that I really do. I mean, it sucks to let an interest go, but I really wanna put my all into it if I do something. It feels better too. XD Cutting out things makes time for the more valued stuff, and ends up making tiggy happier, so I think it's potentially win win. :) Something I wound back onto after years, I guess, was this site - Zenhabits. In particular, 20 Ways to Eliminate Stress From Your Life. Totally recommend a read if you're up for it. :)
Let's see... More progress is being made on my fursuit, and I now have about a footpaw and a half done, and the tail, head, and chest (besides the airbrushing for striping) will be what's left. Hopefully Silver and I'll work more on that this week, as I'd love to have it for AC. Fingers crossed, but hopefully it'll be done. Just sucks he's been busy, and I hate to make him change gears if he doesn't have a few hours to spend with me on it.
Another thing - I ended up getting a tablet PC. :) It's an old refurbished model, an HP Pavilion TX2517CL, which I got from CedarPC. With shipping, it initially set me back $340, and I just had to get a replacement keyboard and stylus to go with it for about $40 more. In addition, I ended up replacing the drive from a 250GB 5400rpm to a 320GB 7200rpm drive I had lying around, installed Windows 7. I also plan to use it for my drawing/coloring and travel PC, since it's a lot easier to tote than my 17" lappy. I'll have this with me when I go to AC in a few weeks. Thanks to the digitzer screen (that's 'Wacom penabled'), the brighter things do look grainy, and I have to be careful from going between a CCFL backlight to an LED one, since sometimes the colors I picked don't look correct on my LED screen.
Beyond that, I guess it's been somewhat life as normal. Got a new coonie plush for my huggy tiger to snuggle, got a stand for my tablet PC to work on it better, have some new luggage on the way that I'll be using when I go to AC... Oh! And I'm back on the 'experimental medication' that I was on several years ago that cleared me up so well! :D The medication is now called Stelara, and unfortunately, it is pretty expensive. o_O But I go for my next booster shot next month, and I'm progressively showing more and more improvement as the days go by. It's certainly not as 'fast' as I'd like, but it's encouraging to know that people are still seeing improvement as they continue the treatments.
This past weekend too, I went on an impromptu furmeet to the Aquarium of the Americas, met a few new people and hung out with some old friends for a few hours, and afterwards, saw Avenue Q. What bugged me is that I knew most of the play going into it due to the soundtrack, but it was nice to connect the songs with the dialogue in between. Just wish I had a few more people that went with me to enjoy it too. :( Afterwards, I saw Ross and Will again, hung out with them for a while, ended up getting and building the chair I REALLY wanted to get a few months ago, and had a pretty relaxing Sunday, all told.
Lastly, I'm looking forward to Nintendo's E3 conference later today. :) Probably gonna learn some fascinating stuff about the 3DS (since it may be more powerful than the Wii) and whatever else Nintendo throws at us. They still have my heart first when it comes to gaming, and I can't wait.
I think I've packed into this journal what I've held back on saying for a while - I'm just kinda surprised that it's so much. XD I guess I should write about it more. :3P Still though, I hope you guys are hanging in there and doing okay.
That, and I'll end my journal with a quote that has been somewhat inspirational to me (and to get me out of the funk I mentioned in the beginning)
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.' We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." (A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles", Harper Collins, 1992. From Chapter 7, Section 3])
My hope is that I try not to hide that 'light' that I have as much as I normally do. I don't want to make others jealous or feel bad - but deep down, I do want to share what makes me happy. And I'm gonna give myself permission to do so. X3
If you made it through that huge block of text, thanks for reading, guys. :3
